There is no feeling worse than not feeling like yourself. Than being stuck in a vortex of exhaustion and anxiety. Or being trapped in a zombie-like state where you don’t even feel like a person anymore. The past approximate year and a half have been challenging for me personally. With each month that passed, I felt myself slipping more and more away from who I am. My energy was depleted, my anxiety was out of control, and everything I tried to do felt like an uphill battle. After too much time and too much frustration, I finally decided to take action against my own mind and body.
The first major step to awakening myself physically and spiritually was to ditch my birth control pill. I had been on this hormone-controlling medication for nearly seven years. For obvious reasons, I was hesitant to stop it for I didn’t realize the havoc it was causing for me internally. I’m currently a month and a half out since quitting cold turkey and I feel physically renewed. Along with quitting the pill, I focused on my health further and have some vitamins replenished at my primary care that were shockingly low. I didn’t realize how badly I was neglecting my body’s needs.
Since saying hasta la vista to birth control and taking the prescription level vitamins I needed, I finally feel like a person again. For the first time in the longest, I have enough energy to make it through the day without napping or crashing. My anxiety has reduced significantly and I feel like I can actually hear and control the thoughts in my mind. My mind feels like it’s racing a lot less too. In all honesty, my mental health has almost skyrocketed and the depressive thoughts and moods have seemingly vanished. I couldn’t be more grateful for the positive, quick results I’ve experienced since prioritizing my health.
On a spiritual level, I am still working to focus more on mindfulness and intentional living; something I believe everyone should strive for. With a clearer head, I feel inclined to live less mentally and immerse myself into my own reality again. It’s been so long since I felt like I could do that. Like I could be me. Like I could run free and open my mind again. The journey is far from complete, but taking these first steps of getting my body in check have made a world of a difference. I feel like I’ve woken up and stepped out of the dark hole I was living in. It goes to show that self care and recognition of your needs isn’t something to be taken lightly or put off. The work to be done on ourselves is endless, but in the best way. We have the power to constantly evolve and grow. Living with an intentional mindset, getting to re-know my core self, and living truly in the moment are goals that actually feel achievable to me now, when they didn’t for the longest time. Revitalization of your health and mind is necessary. Take the time to focus on your own needs and get back to you.
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